Back to the old~~ DAYS...

Yeah, back to the old days i would say... was mousing around and i just clicked on some of the old photos i took when i was in secondary school all the way till now... what great memories i would say.. here's some of the photos i had all through my years.. take a look friends!:))

Gone were the days...

What an unfortunate mistake that we landed on this sinful and chaotic place called Earth... Gone were the days when our parents feed us our porridge and change our diapers, we're all grown ups now and here we are eating our own sh*t and clearing the "mess" we've done. I was doing my APEL reflection last night when i realised how much i've changed within just 3 years of my life... Be it good or bad, i've gone through them throughout my 3 years of polytechnic life...
I personally feel that i've changed alot in my 3 years in Polytechnic because i've got no aim when i got into TP. Unlike those days when i was in secondary school, i had an aim which was to enter the course i am in now... Now that i'm already in this course, i realised that i became complacent to a certain extend... well, i'm just glad that i didn't screw my exams and all, i still got passes for all of my subjects, but, of course it's not of an impressive pass with a GPA of 4...
Anyhow, now that i'm hitting on the 20 mark in approximately 3mths, it's time for me to set my priorities again... i like this quote my friend post on his MSN nick: "it's the long- term goals that defeats the short- term obstacles", well, it's true... it's always important to be optimistic and look ahead to reach out for our long- term goals and not look back at the short- term failures or disappointments... Guess this is what i really need to observe as for now...
Recently, i've been facing lotsa problems or hiccups in my personal life and relationships... well, maybe i should start focusing on my goals ahead now and always TRUST GOD!
Gonna end my nagging and frustration now, signing off! ciaos!

Letting go~~

yes, i'm bitching abt this girl who borrows money from ppl and never returns! i really hope she reads this and wake up her f*ckin idea about returning me my money man! i've never seen such a s*ut in my life before... to make things worse, she ACTS like she's damn nice when she needs ur help! wtf!

Well, i feel so much better after letting off man! she's... phew..! Anyhow, told Sam how i felt about us, hope she'll really take some time to think through what she has to think through. Guess there's too many things on your mind now girl... :( anyhow, think you're asleep already, sleep tight, sweet dreams:))
Ciaos!

Camp Bond-age

Sound wrong uh?! camp bond-age?! haha! this was what is printed on my camp t- shirt this year! goodness!
Anyhow, i'm back blogging after a 2 day 1 night water polo camp:) can you believe it? we walked from temasek poly all the way to EAST COAST PARK where we settled down and rest for the night? haaha! yeah, we really did that..! well, after the long walk to East Coast the guys kinda settled down while Marcus, Fang Yin, myself and a new member, Andy, joined us in our ROC~ing at Mac.. cheez! what else can we do when 4 guys are together man?! haha! yes, we were chatting about girls.. poor Andy had to be interogated by us all through the night... guess it's the bond we all have, the ROC club never cease to have nothing to talk about, we can just talk crap all throughout the night and we still have alot more to talk the next time we meet.. haha! so who says that guys are lousy speakers, they can be good when it's of an appropriate time.. well, it's probably guy's ego when they keep quiet n stuff when they're in front of people, but when they come together, they can be as noisy as a the market on a sunday morning! wahahahaahah:)
well... just like the cliche saying, "all good things always comes to an end.." yeah, now we're back home and the crazy project rush is on it's way! phew... there's gonna be lots of midnight owls studying for the term test and rushing for projects, this is the life of a polytechnic student man! Lol!
Hmm... received a call from..... yeah, you last night when i just fell asleep, sorry if i was a lousy comforter... i know i'm super bad at this.. i really feel so useless when it comes to comforting people, i hope everything is gonna go well for you soon. I know it's tough, but don't worry, you'll definitely make it if you persist ok? don't give up something you've been working for for a long time.:) Oh ya, i remember this song i heard in Cuurch some time ago.." never never never never never... never give up, if you believe you will be done, nothing is impossible, spread your wings, make a miracle, never never never never never... never give up". Girl, don't let one failure be an obstacle for you to succeed, instead, let it make you stronger and fitter to fight on:)
signing off now! ciaos!

Ouch!

Sometimes you just don't realise how much one word can hurt a person's feelings... Forgive me for being cold if i were to be cus what you said didn't sound nice to me :( i thought it would be nice and lovely, but it ended up being sad and hurting. I really don't feel good now... Guess you really need some quiet time to think of what you really want girl.
Today's post is a short one, i'm going back to my projects and goodbye to the not so nice day, it's now friday!
Signing off. Ciaos!

In the process of PROJECTING~~

Hi friends... i'm rather busy now... let me just share with you all my timetable of this week.. Thurs i've got proj meeting and training, Friday i've got Cell meeting and camp preparation... Sat and sun i've got Waterpolo camp.. then mon i've got OB quiz to study and TUE i've got 2 presentations to present... Guess what? i just finish doing my Destinations Powerpoint and i'm now going to start with my Buisness Enterprise issue presentation... yeah, that's my life now... I'm just glad that at this point of time when i am so stressful with my work and studies, i'm able to rely on GOD..
Anyhow, it's the FINALS for Champion's League btwn Liverpool and AC-Milan!!! How can i miss it?! Oops! didn;t i say that i'm super busy woth projects and all?!! wahahaha! Well, recently, i realised that there have been so many unnatural death and it made me realise that i have to treasure the people around me more... so no matter how busy and tired i am, i will always find time for my family and friends as much as i could!
Aights, shall start with my issue presentation for Biz Enterprise now!
Signing off! Ciaos!

In school...

Life's relatively good nowadays! have a great family, good friends and of course enough money to spend, what else can i complain?1 haha!
Anyhow, just blogging in today's entry b4 i go for my public speaking lecture.. hmm.. had quite a relaxed day today except for the mind screwing AMADEUS test the first thing in the morning! Goodness, i heard that only 20 percent of the students who took ticketing pass their elective last semester!! this is scary... especially for a computer dinasaur like me... oops!
Anyhow, after lunching in school, we went to simpany bedok, our budget kopi corner for coffee... so we were like chatting until Cedric randomly commented:"why not we go overseas la"... then everyone kinda stopped talking for a second and immediately after that, the whole entire chit chat session was turned into choosing where to go, what to do and how much would it cost... haha! yeah, that's how random we can get... anyways, after confirming where we wanna go (Phuket), we headed back to school to make use of the FREE wireless net and started sourcing for air tix! haha! imagine travelling to phuket for lessser then $80 dollars for a round trip! it's better then shopping in Singapore la! haha!
Anyhow, we're planning to go this holidays in June b4 our internship starts! see, we're really enjoying life uh!
OKOK, enuf of myself, guess what?! SAm's cooking today!!! haha.... cant imagine her in her cooking apron, standing in front of a stove with her sauce pan cooking her TODAY'S SPECIAL: bacon ham and cheese fusilli... haha! sounds nice, wonder if it's nice:) All the way girl! Waiting to test try your food! ahhahaha! Love you!
Signing off now, going for lect then training! ciaos!

Mesmerized

"Sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do, try to figure something anything just to keep me from thinking of you, but you know it's not working out cux you're all that's on my mind, one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the World behind..." lyrics of Lonely September...
It explains how i feel now... i didn't mean for this to go for as far as it is... i didn't mean to fall in love but i did... today's an EMO~ing day...

Now, i'm back to reality!

Having spent a week alone all by myself, i realised how useless i am. haha! Guess cooking is not the only skill i have to learn... i still have to master how to wash my own clothes! Who says that washing clothes is just throwing it into the washing machine and that's it?! oh... if you think it's like that, you are so wrong! lol!
Anyhow, i've gone through my entire week myself and i've had enough of the outside food, here i am back to my mum's home cooked food! i simply love it!
Ok, going to side track a little now... there's so many thing on my mind now, guess it's good for me to let it out here... ever since i entered poly and broke up with my ex girlfriend whom i loved so much, i changed completely... I used to be a person who gives my everything to the girl i love.. but, this girl that i used to go out with broke me up and tore me into pieces... after that relationship, life screwd for me... i did stupid things, changed the kind of life i led and became so "un-joel" it just occured to me that no girl should be trusted... my whole perception of a relationship turned overnight...
Because of all the changes in me, i'm trying reall hard to find the same Joel back again, i hate the kind of life i led and i hate myself for hurting the friends i used to have... sorry if i've disappointed some of you... i am guilty of it myself..
well, let bygones be bygones, the only way now is to move on...
well, at this point, i really wanna thank all the support of my friends who are always with me and trusted me so much... thanks, you guys rock!
Last but not Least, Samantha, you'rre cute:)

Changes...

Many at times we don't realise that we're changing.. maybe it's because we're influenced by other people or we just wanna be SOMEBODY... i realised this myself... right from the mindset i had when i was in primary school.. all the way to secondry school and up to now, in a polytechnic, it's a very different kind of life that i'm leading. i wouldn't say that my life have been smooth sailing.. to be honest, i took many wrong steps.. i fell and stood up again and i fell again... to me, every fall is a learning point and you'll get stronger after it.. Back to the point, i realised that over the years, i've changed quite a fair bit.. be it in the physical or psychological point of view.. in anyways, they all result either a good or bad. Now, this leads me to my next point..

I had my Organisational Behaviour tutorial today, we learnt people judge others by how they look or perceive... well, it's true... but sometimes, it's because the way people perceive others that might hurt people's feelings. i've got this friend of mine in school, he's 21 this year and because of the way he presents himself, people perceive him as someone who's not approachable and unfriendly.. well, that's so not true.. i guess it's alot about one's EQ ... like what i told alot of my friends and i personally feel it's true... "we may not be degree holders or Phd holders, but what's important is that we have to be street- smart" Being street- smart is very important in this society.. we just have to accept the fact that this is what the World requires you to be.

I think that we shouldn't be too fast to judge a person for we would also be judged.. if one commits a mistake, give him/ her an opportunity to change.

Lastly, we go through changes all the time.. many at times, changes can lead to positive or negative impacts... what's important is that we have to remember to stand up after a great fall cus that's the only way you'll grow:)

Signing off! ciaos!

Nothing much today, i simply had a wonderful day chilling out with my buddies! Finally our ROC gang is back together... but, where's darryl?!!!

Something different...

You know, i can never imagine myself being alone, going shopping alone, doing work alone and stuff. But... i just realised something new about myself... i can actually do things alone! it seems that doing things alone, being alone and chilling out alone can be interesting... you don't have to care about talking to someone you don't wanna talk to or covering your face when your date or friends laugh too loud! lol, i guess this period is a good learning time for me... good time to get away from everything and just be myself...
It's true.. ppl influences our behaviour, thus, i think we should always take some time off and be alone, to get to know ourselves again.. we're too influenced by how ppl perceive us that we tend to change our personal character to suit others or the group... that can be dangerous... i'm tired of being fake and putting up a mask.. God made each and every one of us special in our own ways, we should learn to appreciate it instead of changing it... sometimes, i don't understand why books on self- help are published and people buy them... if you wanna know your true self, why not just sit down, be alone and ask God... isn't he the best choice?!
Next, something that really pisses me off is when someone acts genuine to you only when he/ she needs you... i've got friends who's like that... when they need money or favours from you, they make you sound as if you're the king.. once they've achieved what they got, they'll disappear... i've got this so called "friend" of mine who borrowed my stuff and took months to return.. and there are some who borrow money from me and never return... i may be fine with it cus i'm not really that in need of money, but these group of people just proves how cunning and irresponsible they are... maybe some forget, but when it happens all the time, something is wrong... VERY WRONG! I realised that there are so many people like this... to my surprise, some are even strong Christians... i'm not saying anything bad abt the religion, i'm also a Christian... aren't we suppose to be role models rather then.... ya, shall not elaborate..
well, guess we just have to live with it, no one's perfect though... i'm not perfect either, we're constantly living in sin and it's only up to us to "cleanse" our hearts... Jesus is always there for us... i love this passage in the bible "Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight" Guess the verse!
aights, gonna stop here, shall start doing my projects! Granny, Dad, Mum, Jolene and Jerlisa, your bro is praying for you all, enjoy yourselves on the day 2 of ur trip!
signing off! ciaos:)

lonliness

Flying happily... my whole family is now happily on the plane to Hainan island leaving me alone in this house... starting to miss the noisy sisters, the nagging granny, my 24/7 sleeping daddy and the chef de partie of my house, my mummy... i don't know why... while i am typing this post, i could feel a heavy heart in me... it's that kind of lonliness that you'll feel when you're alone with no one by your side... guess this week is gonna be tough for me... well, on the other hand, it prepares me for the future when i travel overseas for my degree... Well, i have to admit, i'm a very pampered boy.. people who knows me would agree with it.. i get what i want and i never had to worry of not having anything.. no matter how demanding i am, my parents are always there to give in to me... i realised that i've relied too much on them... maybe that's why i feel extremely lonely without them...

it's true, other then God who is always there for us, our family is also very important.. who can wonder the kind of life you'll get without family..

Now i could feel how the orphans are feeling in their empty hearts.. they're born in this sinful and evil world without parents or someone to love them... it's really hard...

Enough of the emo~ stuff, i'm glad i have friends from church, water polo team and of cus sec school friends.. i'm just glad they're always here for me when i needed them... friends are also very important, it's true... to all my friends out there, if i've offended you in either ways, i'm deeply sorry and trust me, i do appreciate you all alot.

Por Por, Daddy, Mummy, jolene and Jerlisa, enjoy your trip in Hainan Island:)

signing off... ciaos!

Frustrated but Guilty...

Well, today was a typical friday.. i slept till around 12pm in the afternoon, had lunch with jerlisa, daddy and mummy then i went for my workout in vivocity.. bla bla bla..
Here's the interesting part.. after the tiring workout, i boarded the Bus service number 30.. happily i boarded without realising that it doesn't stop at Kembangan station... so i had to alight in bedok interchange and then take a cab down to uncle Matthew's place for cell group which is now added on to my cab fare to swiss club... goodness..! how frustrating can this get..
next thing that i'm gonna bitch about is my dad... argh..!!!. being a computer idiot like me, he's nuts about using the computer and i hate it when he ask me to do his work for him... you know la ah old man... he kept asing me to type this and that and when i finish typing, he'll be like.. "oops! i think we should rephrase it!" like wtf!! and sorry ah.. it's not like 1 or 2 of documents... it's more then 20 of them... imagine 2 computer idiots sitting in front of the computer doing something that is so not our field of knowledge!! i swear that it was frustrating to the MAX!!!
But.... one thing that shocked me was...... ok, firstly, i'll have to apologise to my dad for being so agitated and frustrated when i was helping him... Guess what?! This is something my dad seldom says to me... he said: "Thank you".... omg... at that point of time, tears just gushed down like a ranging waterfall...
i admit it was a small "Thank you" from my dad.. but it meant alot more to me...
Sometimes, we just don't realise this... something so small or doesn't mean anything to us can be so important to another person... just like my dad, a simple "thank you" is just what i needed and immediately the frustration just went off...
ok, enough of the emo stuff, time to pack up my emotions and sleep early... i've got training tmr!! ciaos:)

Swiss Club.. Rushing here and there

Phew.. Such a tiring day today!! I don't know for whatever reasons, the first stupid thing, i woke up exceptionally early today and i just couldn't sleep after that.. so being a hungry hippo, i decided to make my way to the kitchen and make some breakfast for myself... there goes, once i started eating, i just couldn't stop! haha:) anyhow, after all that i was all ready and i set out for school... so everything went ok (well, at least i thought so...) until i took out my diary from my bag and i realised that i've got an appointment with the Director of FnB in the Swiss club at 3pm... so after my lecture, i had to rush all the way home, cahnged into my formal attire, ad.... haha! ate some food before i set off to the Swiss club.. Goodness, guess what, all in all i spent $30 on cab fare just travelling to and fro from home to the Swiss club and from Swiss club back home..

Well, enough of all the crap, the people working in the Swiss club are really nice... Be it attending to me and stuff, they were all really friendly and courteous... so after spending my whole afternoon in the Swiss Club walking up and down for orientation and of course getting to know what i'm suppose to do, i left the Club at 5pm and rushed home to prepare for training..

Ok, now, the other stupid thing i did today was to "whack" a few pieces of Mummy's home cooked beef rendang before i went for my training... Goodness! when i was sprinting, i could feel the Rendang gravy coming out of my throat... tell u, you'll never want to experience that... Bla Bla Bla... training went on ok with a few year ones falling out cus they couldn't take the strenuous training... until suddenly one guy just happen to complain that he's having a bad headache... so our lifeguards had to rush an ambulance down to send him to the Hospital... thank goodness nothing happen to him..

Anyhow... i had quite a tiring day today, rushing from places to places, guess i'm gonna have an early night tonight!

ok, signing off here! ciaos!

And i say to you, TP Water Polo, Move on!

And yes.. That's myself and Nat:)

that's the brothers in Tekong

Opening!

Hi ppl! yes, finally i'm back blogging again:) First of all, i'll like to apologise to those of you whom i've not returned your emails or msgs online cus i'm really very busy handling my studies, trainings and work. Anyhow, just to update all of you, i'm currently filming BAO JIA WEI GUO, in the show itself, i'm acting as Edgar... who he is?!! i'm not gonna tell you... check it out yourself when it starts screening on channel 8 in July.
Oh ya, yesterday, 8th of May, we were back in Tekong island filming for the last scene of the show.. so having said it's the last scene, we'll not be meeting up till i don't know when also.. so Nat and i were chatting with Wen Yong Da Ge... Goodness, with 25 years in the industry, he knows head to toe of the dos and donts of a professional actor.. his knowledge and experience in this industry really made me take my hat off him. Given his extensive knowledge and experience in this industry, he mantains his humble personality and willingness to teach! Oh ya, just to side track a little, he even bought us Roti John at the food court in Tekong island! Back to where we were, alot of us may think that actors and actresses are people who are ignorant and cocky, you are all so wrong.. Guess what? Our dearest Wen Yong Da Ge cooks every single day for his family!! surprise eh?! :) haha! it's true.. he does it!
Bla Bla... its been a really good and unforgetable time filming with the team... be it the artiste, directors, AP or even the camera crews, they're all really nice to us...! i'll miss you guys!
Last but not least, Nat, all the way, i'm sure you're gonna be winning an award soon! I'm training on my warcraft to attack you, wait for me! haha!