A BEAUTIFUL CONTRADICTION

I'm sorry, my ignorance doesn't mean i don't care about you... I'm sorry, my frustrations doesn't mean i don't need you... and sorry, my anger doesn't mean i don't love you.

You swore by mouth, not to keep anything from me,
You always claim you truly love me,
We've got together by faith that we will walk this journey together,
but why are you keeping your distance from me?

We all felt well when things are right
but just one "hiccup", we fell deep inside.
Is this the love that we both are seeing
or is it just another passer-by.

but...

Trials and errors proved us right,
our love we share wasn't to die.
The big toe's story was there to show
his and her heart really glow

Now i proclaim that you are mine,
now and forever it'll never die.
Simple as it sounds we'll move on by,
it's not easy, but let us try:)

i love her

yes, i simply love her. i mean it:)

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Mood Swings

Do you realise that every human being have mood swings? Yeah, amazingly, mine came last week. I don't know why, but for the entire week, i had mood swings... Sometimes i just wanna be alone, sometimes i just want someone to care for me... Ironic as it seem, i just can't get enough of any.

Anyway, i'm now in my office, feeling really cold due to the freezing air- conditioner and rain outside... Listening to some soft music... Thinking about my family... Having some struggles at home now, dad might lose his managerial position due to some problems in office... Hais, like mentioned in the shoutout in my FRIENDSTER, "Nobody Said It Was Easy"... Well, Life still have to go on...

Well, apart from that, work was as per normal last week, had the weekly events and of course lotsa administrative stuff to do.

Sorry, I just don't feel like blogging today... bye:(

That's What I Call Life!

It's now 9.15am in the morning and i just finish my run, feeling refreshed and rejuvenated, i'm now ready to start my day with a smile:) You know, it feels good having such a life, it's something i like alot. I mean coming to work in the morning, head off for a short run round your office and come back for a shower and now sipping your cup of latte with a muffin in your mouth. Haha! Sounds so perfect! Yeah, that's what i'm doing now! Jealous aren't you?! Hey... i work very hard also can?! Lol!!!

Anyway, last week was good, didn't have much to do except for the events that i had to take care of. It's becoming a norm to me now though... Haha! Apart from that, the most significant day i remembered was on Sunday night when we did some Wine Tasting. I was privilege enough to be invited into the panel of 5, including me to taste and choose the Wine for the Month of December. Well, just in case you are not aware of what's happening in the Swiss Club, we have a monthly promotion in our F&B dept. This means that the Club Manager, Executive Chef, Restaurant Manager and the Banquet Sales Manager have to sit down every month tasting the Wines according to the Theme that they have chosen for the month. It's not a simple job i would say, this is because the wines have to complement the Menu of the Month. And... Guess what?!!?!? the 2 Wines i choose and selected will be going to be the Wine of the Month for December! Lol... They trust me alot don't they?! HHAAHA!

Well, i would say it's all good here in the Swiss Club, i'm really having fun here, so don't worry, Joel's busy enjoying his internship!

Time to continue sipping my Latte, Ciaos!!

This is a Shoutout!

I miss my friends, my family and of course my time OUT!!! WHere is my FREE time?!

Swiss Club:)

Yeah, Swiss Club!! That's where i've been for the past week... Goodness! I've been spending like close to 10hours a day in the club working till my balls shrink! Phew... Thursday to Sunday was worse.. Started work at 2pm and knock off like 4am in the morning! Lol... Yeah, i choose this path so i just have to get my ass moving hard:)
Phew... after working for all the seven days last week, today, my only off day, i still had to wake up at 6am in the morning to rush to Mediacorp to work... Well, what to do, company is already compromising their schedule to try and fit my time cus i'm having my attachment. So... i gotta film on my off days so as to complete my show. After filming, i had to rush down to the hair saloon in Bugis to dye my hair for the show cus my hair colour is fading from the previous colour which was darker.... Well, it's free anyway so i'll just do what they want me to. Haha! Oh ya, know what's the joke? The hairdresser asked me is it me that loves to dye my hair real dark... My answer to her? Well, i;ve got no choice... Even if the director wants me to bleach it white, i also have to say OK :C....
Anyways, like mentioned in my previous post, i will not be blogging as frequently as i used to, but, i'll try to at least blog once a week during my off day to keep you, my friends updated of what's happening to me. Oh ya, life is good for me now, i've enjoying my time in the Swiss Club despite the long working hours and crazy bus rides. Other then that, the people over at the Club are really nice to me!
Ok, i better stop typing now... Time to rest my eyes, i still gotta work at 10am tomorrow:) Signing off now, Ciaos:)

GOOD SUNDAY AFTERNOON!!

Phew... I just came back from a run in the stadium feeling all fresh and rejuvenized! Here i come Swiss club!!! Lol:)
Anyways, i believe you all realised that i've not been blogging for a few days right?! Well, yeah, i was busy catching up with all my friends this week. Did lotsa shopping, spending lotsa of money and of course splurging alot on good food:) I'm just so glad that most of the people i know are really good food "hunters" lol... These friends i have indeed know where to get good food and drinks!! Oh well, maybe that's why i went for a jog earlier... too much accumulated calories!
Apart from that, it was work and work for me... had some filming to do this week, beside that, i had to go down to the Swiss Club a couple of time to attend their meetings for the Oktoberfest!
Hmm.. Guess that's all for these week! To the friends who have been reading my blog regularly, just wanna tell you that i'll not be blogging as regularly as before because i forsee that my intership in the Swiss Club would take up a lot of my time!! haha!
Aights, to all my friends who are going for OSIP, i wish you guys and ladies all the best and for those of us who will be doing our internship in Singapore, i also wish you ppl all the best in whatever you do and we'll see each other in 5 months time ya?! Meanwhile, happy working and of course, take care of your health:)
Friends, jus wanna tell you that i love you ppl:)
Signing off now. Ciaos:)

Catch you!

Haha! Yeah, i'm catching up with my friends this week before my attachment starts on the 10th of Sept. Had a really good time hanging out and slacking... i guess it'll be 6 months later before i can start slacking again..:C Jeez!
Well well well, meanwhile, dearest friends please take good care of yurself ya?! weather has been bad nowadays, guess the monsoon season is back again! lol... enjoy the cooless as much as u can!
Aights, guess my blog entries wouldn't be as frequent as now but i'll try to blog whenever i'm free ok?! Till then, it's WORK, WORK and WORK for me!
Signing off as the one and only JOEL Low! Ciaos my dear friends:)

I'm Back from Karbi, Thailand:)

I'm back! yeah, back from krabi! lol... was one of the really good relax your mind trip after months of mad projects and exams rush:) Anyhow, Krabi is really a place young ppl like us should go... if you're adventurous, love the sea and diving is your love, trust me, make Krabi you choice:! Compared to Bangkok, ppl from Krabi are far more friendly and nice:) Oh ya, i made a bnew friend from Greece in Krabi... Haha! Gotta know him during our boat trip to the 4 different islands around Krabi:)

Oh ya, i kinda spent my birthday in Thailand, haha! in one of the bars... goodness! the owner of the bar basically called all the customers in the bar to come over to my table to sing me a happy birthday song! lol! peeps! Know what, when i was strolling along the beach the next day, i saw the same owner of the bar in his police uniform! hahahha! That makes him a police by day, and a bar owner by night! lol!! Look at the photos, you'll see the owner! lol!

Aights, enough of all the slacking, it's back to filming tomorrow! lol! ok, let the photos do the talking:) Ciaos!

I'm BACK:)

Aights, these few days have been mad filming and studying for me... Just finish one paper and i've got one more to go! As for my new show... Hmmm....Maybe it'll take me a month or so to finish it:)

Nothing much to update you guys... Just wanna tell you all i'm stressing out!!!! HAha! Well, there's one thing i'm sure about, i'm enjoying the process of filming:)

Oh ya, above are pictures of me studying and filming. For some of you who wanna know what is it like behind the scenes, the pictures are for you to see! Oh Oh... one more thing! Saw the signage i put on as my 1st pict?! haha! i found that in the toilet in our resting area:)

Ok, before i end my post... i'll like to thank a few ppl who gave me the encouragement, motivation and of course lots and lots of tidbits and snacks to munch on when i was studying while filming. Thank you Nanxing Da Ge, Chor Meng Da Ge, Li Ping Jie, Ping Hui Ge, Felicia Jie, Joanne Jie and of course my APs and Directors for accomodating to my timing:)

Aights, Singning off now! Ciaos!

Shh.... SECRET

OH MY GOODNESS! It's soooooooo nice!! Yes, i'm talking about Jay Chou's movie "The Secret". Tell you, this movie... PHew! How can anyone not watch it?! Know today, i felt so *unproductive in school studying so i decided to go online... so happen to see Mitch online so i asked her out for movie... was thinking of "License to Wed", but Mitch said that the movie rating for "License to Wed" is not that impressive... So we ended up watching "The Secret". To be honest, i was rather reluctant to go for the movie cuz chinese movie is never my 1st choice... haha! But..... Yeah, i watched it and i REALLY REALLY enjoyed the movie! So i'm now recommending all my friends to go... Go and watch the movie:)

Ok, should start to really study now if not i'll definitely regret! Just received my rundown for thurs and fri, another entire day of filming for me! Wohoo! Pray for me:)

Aights, Signing off now! Ciaos:)

Gone...

Was mad drinking yesterday at Zouk while celebrating Shi Kai's b'dae... had like 6 glasses of whisky on the rock, 2 vodka sprite, 2 shots of vodka and a long island iced tea... Wad happen next?! NOTHING... and i was even sober enough to go to Joo Chiat for Wonton noodles. Jeez! So much of me wanting to get wasted, to leave my problems aside, but in the end, i got worse. Well, i guess clubbing is now getting more and more boring... GONE were the days where i enjoyed the weekly clubbing scene, GONE were the days when i club like crazy and go wild. I seem to not enjoy clubbing anymore. True enough, i left the Zouk at 1 plus, went over to the prata shop oppposite zouk for tea b4 heading to Joo Chiat for our late night supper.

Today... goodness! BORING... Simply BORING... Nothing to do, no plans, can't even be bothered to touch my books and start studying when exams are next week. So what did i do the entire day?! Well, i was eating, eating and eating, then decided to start reading my scripts for my show on Monday, after that, it's mad wasting of electricity cus i'm like on my laptop the entire day!! Goodness, i can't imagine a day withut my laptop... i'm just addicted to it! haha!

Well, guess i better start studying HARD tonight... that's what i tell myself everyday! haha!

*My heart's missing somebody, but i don't know who...

Signing off, Ciaos:)

Ladies night and of course Simpang!

Yeah, FINALLY i'm free from school... todaywas my last day in school, had a really really really long day which started at 9am in the morning and i reached home like 12am in the middle of the night... ok, i know i know... a lot of you would complain tt i didn't bathe for the entire day till 12 am... haha! yes, i didn't!! Sniff Sniff!

Anyhow, the "Ladies night out" which the Sports Club organised was a really successful one with the help of many enthusiastic sports women in TP. Had lotsa fun and of course more bonding with the fellow TP students:) On behalf of the SC, i'll like to extend my gratitude to the ppl involved in the event. Be it the helpers or players, YOU ppl made it happen! CLAPS:)

Ok.. last but not least... Yes, we end up in Simpang again for dinner!! Goodness gracious, i ate so much! Maybe it's time i start my dieting again!! haha!

Aight, signing off now. Enjoy studying my dear poly mates:) Ciaos!

881

Yes, i watched 881 with Randall and Marian earlier... been wanting to watch this film for a really long time alr. Haha! Finally i got to watch it... Well, a very Singaporean show i would say. Lotsa Hokkien can be heard throughout the whole screening, however, for some ppl who don't understand the Singapore's "International language", Hokkien, there's always english subtitles for you:) The movie was quite ok though the storyline can be quite amusing at time. However, apart from the little jokes, there were moments that almost brought me to tears. To me, this is really a very Singaporeanish~~ Movie...

Apart from the movie, my entire day was spent in the club room sleeping then swimming in the evening with Fang Yin and Shi Kai... Was thinking, i'm really enjoying my time with my friends around me. Really like the company of them:)

And.... I'm growing so fat!!! haha! Just feel so fat nowadays... Talking abot fat, i'm still going Simpang with my club members tmr after our Ladies Night Out event. OMG... How to slim down?! haha!

OK, time to sign off now. Ciaos my friends:)
*Friends, thnk you for reading my entries. Really appreciate it:)

Monday Blues

Here i am blogging... ok, suppose to be a Tuesday now.. i'm still not asleep:)

Oh ya, Fiona, Randall and i went bowling today while waiting for Marian to finish her COE bowling training, had 2 games each... Not bad, after not playing for donkey months, i still managd to hit a 192 average... Not bad eh?! Haha!!

Well, after that it was Simpang for us, had our local delights, grew fatter, but alot happier:) I realy love the company with my friends... Whenever i'm with them, there seems to be no worries, no distractions and no stress.. Just us and our FOOD!!!

Anyways, the photos above are from our DEAREST Marian... Thank you so Much!! And.. oh oh... Saw the burger?! I had that for dinner earlier!! haha:)

AIghts, Signing off now. Ciaos

FEEDBACK!!!

Feedback is one of the most important thing to me when it comes to improving myself. So... PPL, pls watch tmr's 9pm show, BJWG on Channel 8.. I'll be acting as Nat's platoon mate.. my name in the show is EDGAR:) Have fun watching!

Singing off! Ciaos

Camera Effects!!

Wohoo... Was in the club room today, got myself high on Samantha's Photo booth on her mac:) haha! here are the stupid pictures i took!! Credits goes to Sam and her $3100 Mac:)

Signing off! Ciaos:)

Tadaaa....!!

WooHoo... project's over! Just had my presentations today:) What's next would definitely be the EXAMS that would be approaching... Oh ya, and of course the loads of reflection writings we have to submit real soon.. argh!

Just to update you ppl who read my blog regularly, sorry.... i was really busy the past few weeks therefore i wasn't able to update my blog as often as i wished to... Having to juggle tests, projects, meetings, and of course filming is really a challenge! Well, thank goodness, now that i have completed my projs, i would have more time to study and also of course, read my scripts. haha!

Oh oh... Our dearest MARCUS CHEW book out last fri! wahaha! you should see him in his smart 4!! Suddenly he looks so manly all... haha! Kinda weird seeing him in uniform though! Anyway, after picking him up from Pasir Ris, we went for some drinks while waiting for Fang Yin to end work.. after that, it's SIMPANG all the way... Lol! Sat, as usual, we went for training in the morning and in the evening... Guess wad?! we went to watch ALONE! omg... anyone with high blood pressure and heart problems, i suggest you to stay away from this movie! wahahah! It was really weird throughout the whole show cus there was like the 4 of us, including Fiona, a new member in our ROC club... so theoretically we as guys were suppose to be manly and "strong"... in the end, we were like grabbing one another in the cinema... haha! Pls... when i say grabbing, i mean grabbing each other's arm and not.... ya, u noe wad la ah! haha!

As for sunday, it was the usual Church service in the morning before rushing over to Eliza's house in woodlands where we spent most of our time watchin movies?! haha! Yeah, we were suppose to be doing projects, but in the end, we spent more time eating and watching movies!! wahahaha! What a contradiction right?! To add on to our enjoyment... we indulged ourselves with our all time favourite Ben's and Jerry's ice cream while watching high school musical in the evening!! I really enjoyed the process of working with this group of mine.. though it was really weird in the beginning when our group was formed cus of some misunderstanding in the past, now i would proudly say that we are one of the best groups who are not only made up of great workers but also a team who is united and intimidating... Lol!

Well, it was all fun the last weekend... looking forward to the coming sat when we'll be going drinking:) cool...! I guess all of you can see that i'm really enjoying myself now... But, apart from enjoying myself, i'm still focusing on my studies:) No worries!!

Ok, i should sign off now or i'll just keep on typing till dawn. haha! Ciaos:)

Pheww... it's gonna be over!

After weeks of meetings and late nights, we're finally 80% done with our project. From the group meeting earlier, i could feel that many of us were kinda relaxed compared to a week ago when we were all rushing for the projects submission. Well, what's left now would be the project presentations and of course, the unavoidable EXAMS!! Wuaaaa!!

Well... thank goodness, after 3 years of my tertiary education, i'll get to celebrate my birthday this year!! For the previous years, it's either my exams fall on the actual day of my b'dae or a day after that.. I guess God is seeing that i'm so deprived from b'dae celebrations that he's allowing me to celebrate my 20th birthday with peace...:) Oh ya, talking about that, i guess that i'll be spending my 20th birthday with a friend of mine in Krabi... We've kinda planned our trip and if everything goes on well, i'll be leaving Singapore on the 27th, a day before my b'dae:)

Okok, i better go and read up on my project now... I'll be having a presentation tmr and of course many more to come the following week... so, pray that i'll do well ya?! Thnk you so much!!

Signing off now! Friends, take care of yourself, you'll be in my prayers:) Ciaos!

Picts...

Now you know what we do when we get bored while filming?! Lol:)

Oh ya, "Bao Jia Wei Guo" starts tmr!! Remember to catch it on Channel 8 @ 9pm:)

Signing off. Ciaos!

Projects and People

Projects rush... Yeah, the once a semester project rush is here!! First of all, i just wanna thank God for such a wonderful project group i have. They're people who really think deep into the project and generate great ideas. Anyhow, sometimes i really feel bad that i can't afford the time to meet up with them when meetings are called up... So.. let me take this opportunity to name out my proj grp mates: Corrine, MX, Crystal, Eliza, Xavier and of course, the man, Wei Yuan! Grp mates, thank you so much.

Alright, 2 projs submission is over, 1 more to go... After which it would be all the presentation and stuff, just hope that everything's fine:)

Ok... my weekend was really filled up with programmes... Had training on Sat morning, went home for a late breakfast b4 i went off to do some errands. In the evening after i break fast for dinner, i drove on to school to set up the projector and prepare the dance studio for the helpers who are gonna help out in the mizuno race this Sunday morning. And yes... my whole Sunday is gone... Anyhow, had a really good time bonding with my Main- Comm b4 i set out for SIP in Sept... Though it was tiring, but i really enjoyed myself:)

Well, life's short, live well and don't waste every opportunity to spend time with the people you love.

Ok, gtg.. needa practise my scripts... Friends, take care of yourself and have an enjoyable week ahead!

Aights, signing off now! Ciaos:)

2007-2007

Something that happens once in a thousand years...20-07-2007... cool eh?! haha!

Anyway, just to keep all my friends updated, i've been really busy recently. Rushing projects, busy with the sports club and of course, filming. Well, i guess this is gonna go on for at least a month or so. So dear friends, if i can't meet up with you all, sorry ah! But... I'll try to find and squeeze in time for you ppl, so don't worry k?! Just give me a call or a msg:)

Ok, i'm signing off now, Ciaos:)

Can't fall asleep:(

Time check, it's 3am in the morning now and i still can't fall asleep... Hais. ok so i shall blog since i have not much time in the day to sit down and blog a new post.

Aights, i was out with Clement earlier for some movie preview starring Nicholas Tse, think it's called "Invisible Target" Phew... i strongly recommend my friends to catch this movie. It has this seriousness and suspense in it when it comes to the plot... But, apart from the action packed stunts that the actors have to do, there's this little parts here and there that were really funny:) Haha! i would say it's worth your money watching. For a person who seldom watch Chinese movies, i have to admit that i was totally engrossed in it! haha!

Other then that, life for me is really hectic... Lotsa pressure from school cus project submissions are around the corner and we're all mad rushing for our final lap in Poly... As for my work, it's being pretty good... Started filming on Monday for "Huang Jin Lu", everything went smoothly, there weren't many hiccups, but it was rather long hours filmining the 2 scenes. I'm suppose to film yesterday also, but i had to cancel it due to commitments from school... Filming again on friday, and many more next week... lets hope that everything goes fine for me:)

FRIENDS, how are you all? hope you ppl are doing fine too! well, if i'm free, we can always meet up:) Just give me a ring or drop me a msg k?! Other then that, i just hope that all of you are doing fine and "kicking" healthily:)

And... oh ya, b4 i end my entry, just to update u ppl who have been asking me the same question.... No, i'm not attached... haha! the girl standing beside me in my family photo is my FRIEND:)

OK, signing off now.... I should really try to slp again:) Ciaos!

Are we striking a balance?!

I was looking into my pictures and i realised that there are so many pictures of myself taken with friends. Well, of course it's a good thing... But on the other hand, i have a question here... Are we striking a balance between family time compared to the time we spent out with friends?!

Well, i believe many teenagers or young adults are guilty of spending too much time out with friends or work that we tend to forget about our own family. Or.... is it that we have already taken granted of our own family that we choose to ignore and not be bothered... For these past few months, i realised that my home is like a hotel to me... somewhere i go to have my bath and sleep... Sometimes, i don't even eat at home... Like mentioned, i was looking through my pictures and to be honest, it was so difficult to even find any pictures of my family and i taken together... How shameful can this get...:(

Maybe it's time we should reflect and think about our family and how much they care for us unconditionally... Or some of us should reflect upon our parents who brought us up so well, yet we choose to hurt or disappoint them... Life is really unpredictable, appreciating someone dear to you is something we should do... Take a minute off your time, tell mummy and daddy that you love them, i believe they'll be really happy:)

Well, as for myself, i choose to stay home today to just spend some precious family time that we don't really get to have every week... We had a simple dinner together and the time we shared was really wonderful... Looking from the smiles of my Dad, Mum and of course Granny, i know that they're really happy that their kids are spending time with them:)

So to all my friends out there, maybe you'll like to just take one day off your busy schedule and just enjoy the family time together. Trust me, a simple thing like this will not only strengthen your family bond, but also, it's a good form of relaxation!!

Signing off, Ciaos:)

Thank You Mediacorp:)

Oh ya! Fiona, thank you for buying me the banana cake! haha! If not for you, i'll be starving like crazy! Lol.

Ok, i just reached home after doing my imaging in office... All thanks to the producers and casting officers, i'm given another show! Hurray:) Anyway, i'm currently going to be filming this show called "Huang Jin Lu", or Golden Path in english. As requested by my producers, i'll be going to Bugis tomorrow to get my hair dyed BLACK! O.M.Goodness! why black?! Well, anyway imaging is done by the company, so i'll just adhere to it:)

Oh ya, We were doing our photoshoot in office, so Joanne Peh have to try on this dress that she'll be wearing in the show cus there's one scene which requires her to have a "tummy"... Why so?! Hmm... watch the show and you'll know why!!... Anyway, she was so fascinated with it that after the photoshoot, she took out her own camera and requested for the photographer to take some pictures of her! Wahaha! Funny:)
Ms. Joanne Peh.... you look good in that "BULGING" tummy! wahahaha!

Hmmm... are you all going to ask me who are the other stars in this show?! Mmm... shall not leak out now! You guys go and guess who they are! Or.... Wait till the show is out:)

Just to be nice, if i remember to bring my camera on Monday when we start filming, i'll take some pictures kaes?!

Aights, going to read my scripts now... TAKE CARE of yourself people!

Signing off now! Ciaos:)

I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU

Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you...

Signing off. Ciaos...

Woo~~ I'm a Happy Man:)

I don't know what's with today, but i just feel happy:) Just finish my lessons and i'm now in the club room blogging while waiting for my meeting to start.
Anyways, to start with.... Yes, i was late for my lesson this morning! haha! Lesson suppose to start at 9am in the morning and this smart guy here arrived in school at 10am?! cool right!! hahaha! OOps! Isn't this something i shouldn't be proud of?! Oh ya... guess the thing that made me happy today is the fact that i managed to flag a cab like 5 mins after i got out of house and.... the uncle who drove me to school is a Christian!!! The whole journey to school was such a luxury with worship songs played in the cab:) Something i really love to hear apart from MUTTONS IN THE MORNING! Wahahahahahah:)
After my lesson which ended at 11am, i went on to meet the "uncle" in our course, Dennis and his group mates for a light breakfast at the Temasek Culinary Academy... Just looking at our juniors going through what we went through in Sentosa when we had our Culinary and Service module really made me reflect on how fast and quick time flies... well, Marcus is going in to Tekong this Friday... that's how quick it is... Oh ya, we're meeting tomorrow afternoon for lunch at the club... maybe the last lunch with a pink IC for Marcus until 2 years later. haha!!
I dunno why... I feel happy today:) Probably it's the weather! super good weather today, rained in the late morning and the whole day was cool... Most importantly, we're blessed with Air- Conditioned classrooms which made it so comfortable for us while studying:)

This is just random... You're really sweet:)

Aights, breaking fast now! Signing off! Ciaos my friends:)

It's the rush of ALCOHOL again!!

What a night!
Wow, really, what a night it was... Kaes, let me blog down what happened yesterday. haha! You know my ROC club members are very "health conscience"... so we went running round the reservoir as we forsee that the night would be filled with much sinful eating and drinking:) True enough, right after the run, we headed to KFC for some sinful kentucky fried chicken! wahaha! look at how "health conscience" we are?!
Anyways, after Fiona, our dearest PRESIDENT arrived, we headed to the "MARTINI FIRM" in Mohamed Sultan Road where we had a drink each and a few shooters before we head down to Le Baroque in Chijmes where Fiona and myself went loose on alcohol! haha! Goodness, you should see how Fiona danced with the ladies, it was crazy! Wahahaha! Well, guess it's the "Sambuca" and "Bacardi 151" we had yesterday that now, Fiona and i are suffering from a bad throat and a wierd tummy ache! Anyhow, it was a really good night for me... was suppose to be a "goodbye" drinking session for Marcus before he enters into the Army, but.... in the end, it was me that went bonkers with the alcohol.. haha!
OH YA.... I managed to see Fiona's Identity Card last night!!!! haha! She looks so different compared to her photo in her IC... Really super different!!.... Oops! think Fiona's gonna kill me soon...:)
Anyway, Marcus, all the best in serving the nation. Fang Yin, keep up with the spirit of a Naval Diver and Fiona... All the best for your POL-ITEs:) As for myself, people, just pray hard that i don't flunk my ticketing test!!
Aights, SIgning off now! Ciaos!

Missing You...

Before you turn your face away and give up on all we used to have, listen to what I have to say.

When you left, I died inside, but I thought I had made the right choice

After you slipped away I tried to keep you while I still had a voice

Perhaps I was trying too hard and I should've pulled back, but instead I gambled my heart because never before had it been attacked like that.

A lot of time has passed us by and I know we both have our own dreams. But I've never known quite why I still don't feel like I'm complete

Because I loved you and you loved me, we were lost inside a fairytale beyond this world I could not see... Maybe that's why our love failed

Sometimes I think out loud and people punish me for even making a sound about you and me

We can never be, but I miss you, I miss you and I'm not sure what to do

Now you're gone, I can't seem to find another like you

Don't you know that I miss you dearly...

The Pieces don't fit anymore...

I dunno why, but i just have to get emo on a saturday... Maybe it's just the heavy rain in the morning.. argh!
Well, had supper with "President" and Andy last night in Simpang while sipping some Baileys... Been drinking alot nowadays...guess it's just the sleepless nights that made me drink more these days... Know something, i'm rather tired of acting strong in front of everyone, it's really tiring... Met up with Sherlynn on thurs night, went drinking all, realised that she really changed quite alot. Sometimes i just don't know how my heart feels... one part of me says move on, but the other half of me still loves her deeply. That's why after all these while, trying to get into another relationship fails me badly. I'm really shocked by some of her behaviour now, maybe i just don't know her enough or she really changed too much. Well, maybe it's better to keep some things as memories then going back, trying to fit the pieces together, which at the end of the day, might just hurt each other again.
Maybe it's good just to submit myself to God and let Him decide what's my next step. I wanna find back the old Joel.. The old Joel who was once fat, ugly, but happy and real... This is killing me, i'm tired... really tired...
Before i end my entry today, i wanna tell my Water Polo guys that i really appreciate each and everyone of you cus only when i'm with you guys, i see myself:) Next, Fiona, thanks for the Baileys, and..... I wanna see your Identity Card! wahahaha!
Signing off! ciaos:P

Disappointed...

I've had enough of the screamings and orders from you, i've had enough of the scoldings you gave, i've had enough of the discrimination you hurled, i've had enough of giving in and i've had enough of You! Someone who made me do squats when i scold vulgar languages in the pool, someone whom again and again threaten me... I've had enough of it... Every human has his/ her limits of tolerance! Once you've gone too far, you'll never be able to turn it back!

That very Monday, the 2nd of July 2007, in front of my team in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, with the presence of other competitors, You shouted "FUCK OFF" straight onto my face! Someone i respected as a coach, as an elder, what you did is nothing but childish and cheap! Still, i put down my pride, i played on for the last quarter and that's the end of it...

Till the day you put down your pride and say sorry to me, i'll NEVER return.

To my dearest team of TP, i've never given up hope on you all and please, don't give up hope on yourself... Your past captains and i have fought our way to continue TP Water Polo, so work hard and i know one day you guys would make it")
Signing off! Ciaos!

Singapore, a nice city with such inconsiderate Singaporeans...

Pissed... i think Singapore drivers should learn to be little more considerate in the aspect of giving way... i was like in the bus 168 towards Tampines earlier this evening, and guess what?! i was stuck in the bus for a solid 10 mins!!! Reason?! our dearest Singaporean drivers just refuse to give way to a pathetic bus who holds like 60 passenger on board! How much time difference would it make to allow a bus to cut the lane so that passengers on board the bus can alight on the next stop?!... what kind of drivers are these?! We're such a well developed city with a good government and a wonderful environment to live in, but, sadly, with such inconsiderate Singaporeans around. I'm not saying that all Singaporeans or drivers are like that, I'm just referring to those who just can't "afford" to be a little more considerate.. are we becoming too selfish or are we just can't be bothered??!
Since Play school to Primary school, then to Secondary and Tertiary level, we've always been taught to be courteous. Have we as Singaporeans forgot all that we've learnt?! Look at the mirror and ask yourself this question, how many of us bothered to say "thank you" or "please" to someone we ask for for a favour?! Even the simplest thing such as saying "thank you" to the cleaners in the hawker or "please" to the taxi drivers when we board the cab is so difficult?! Maybe we took things for granted all along or we just can't be bothered...
For someone who is in the service industry, i have to agree that smiling everyday is not easy, to make things worse, when we're having a bad day, the last thing on our mind is to even smile... Well, maybe we have to make a little more effort in doing so... just for those of you who don't know, just a simple gesture of appreciation to someone who has offered a service for you, would really make he/ she feel good. So is this little gestures that hard to do?! These are some of the questions i wanna pose to my friends who are reading the blog..
Maybe we should first start by saying "thank you" or "please" to the people who are helping us, i think that's really nice to start of with right?! not very hard, we'll try aights?!
So, i'll like to take this opportunity to say a big THANK YOU to everyone here who has in one way or another helped me along the way and of course YOU! Yes, You.. those fruends who are reading my blog now, THANK YOU Soooooo Much:)
Signing off! Ciaos:)

My Sincere Appreciation:)

Since the day i put up the post regarding the "stones" my mum has in her bladder, i've received lotsa advices from friends out there. Just wanna tell you all that i really appreciate it alot and of course, thank you for taking your time off to read my blog:) Anyhow, just to update you, my mum was sent to the hospital again yesterday cus she felt the same pain on her tummy.. after some checks, the doctor gave her another medication and ask her to rest well.. really painful to see my mum suffering like that...
Well, enough of the emo~ing, school just reopened today... hmm was relatively ok except..... I'M GONNA FAIL MY TICKETING MODULE!! goodness, just 2 weeks of break and i'm feeling so lost when i was in class today.. i just hope i don't fail this module... if not.. i gotta repeat it again, shitty la! guess i just have to work harder and catch up before i regret...:(
ok, time to start my engine going and work hard for this last semester in school!!
Sam, hope you're doing well ah! call me out when u r bored, if not.. you can always accompany me while i study. haha!
Signing off now! ciaos!

Water Polo players night out...

Need not type out, let the pictures explain itself:)