Something different...

You know, i can never imagine myself being alone, going shopping alone, doing work alone and stuff. But... i just realised something new about myself... i can actually do things alone! it seems that doing things alone, being alone and chilling out alone can be interesting... you don't have to care about talking to someone you don't wanna talk to or covering your face when your date or friends laugh too loud! lol, i guess this period is a good learning time for me... good time to get away from everything and just be myself...
It's true.. ppl influences our behaviour, thus, i think we should always take some time off and be alone, to get to know ourselves again.. we're too influenced by how ppl perceive us that we tend to change our personal character to suit others or the group... that can be dangerous... i'm tired of being fake and putting up a mask.. God made each and every one of us special in our own ways, we should learn to appreciate it instead of changing it... sometimes, i don't understand why books on self- help are published and people buy them... if you wanna know your true self, why not just sit down, be alone and ask God... isn't he the best choice?!
Next, something that really pisses me off is when someone acts genuine to you only when he/ she needs you... i've got friends who's like that... when they need money or favours from you, they make you sound as if you're the king.. once they've achieved what they got, they'll disappear... i've got this so called "friend" of mine who borrowed my stuff and took months to return.. and there are some who borrow money from me and never return... i may be fine with it cus i'm not really that in need of money, but these group of people just proves how cunning and irresponsible they are... maybe some forget, but when it happens all the time, something is wrong... VERY WRONG! I realised that there are so many people like this... to my surprise, some are even strong Christians... i'm not saying anything bad abt the religion, i'm also a Christian... aren't we suppose to be role models rather then.... ya, shall not elaborate..
well, guess we just have to live with it, no one's perfect though... i'm not perfect either, we're constantly living in sin and it's only up to us to "cleanse" our hearts... Jesus is always there for us... i love this passage in the bible "Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight" Guess the verse!
aights, gonna stop here, shall start doing my projects! Granny, Dad, Mum, Jolene and Jerlisa, your bro is praying for you all, enjoy yourselves on the day 2 of ur trip!
signing off! ciaos:)